Gawh...

My life is making me sick. It is having too many ups and downs. One minute I'm so ready to be here and do everything and be my own person and then the next I just wanna go home and cuddle up to my mommy and be a child again. I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I still don't know why I'm even here in Salt Lake. Both of these have been quite difficult for me, to be so unknown. I just want to know right now. I want God to call down to me and tell me the exact answers to my questions, but I guess that's not how he works...