Monday, October 13, 2014

Cast Member Status

Well I officially got my first job. I now work at the Disney Store at the City Creek Mall here in Salt Lake, which is only a few blocks from my house. (also right next to the temple). I've never had a job before so we'll see how this goes. I'm hoping good since I LOVE Disney!!! Wish me luck! :)

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

What am I doing?

I have no idea what I'm doing anymore with my life. After a few weeks of taking medical assisting courses I decided it wasn't for me, yet it's too late to change my major this semester. So I dropped a few classes, still taking one medical course and two other classes but now I'm considered only a half time student. I haven't decided what I want to do from here, I have until next semester class sign ups to figure out what kind of direction I want to go, but that's still coming up pretty fast. I can't believe I've been here for over a month now. I know I'm supposed to be here in Salt Lake City, but now I really don't know for what and God is not giving me an answer. But I know now that becoming a medical assistant is not what God has in store for me, I had felt that I wasn't in the right program and then God showed me for sure that I wasn't; so I know I'm still in the right path. But that doesn't mean it's any less hard to be here, going to this school, now for nothing. I don't know if I'm supposed to continue my education at LDSBC or go somewhere else, but God just keeps telling me to stay here when I pray to him, not telling me why. I guess I'll find out eventually...

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

I'm here for a reason

It's been a crazy almost month here in Salt Lake. There have been a lot of tears shed; happy ones, sad ones, and even angry ones. But I know that I'll get through because I know that this is where I'm supposed to be. After my first day of going to class, I knew. I knew that this is what I'm supposed to be doing with my life. I don't know if it's because of my career choice, or what but, I'm in the right spot. That feeling is great, knowing that I'm where I need to be. But it's also hard not knowing why it's the right place to be. My testimony has been greatly strengthened since I've been here and I haven't even been here that long, so maybe that's the reasoning, but only God really knows. My praying has been mostly me asking him why I'm here, what I'm doing, am I going in the right direction? But he tends to not answer those and just makes me feel him there. It's like he doesn't want me to know, and that frustrates me quite a bit. I know he's giving me room so that I can make my own decisions and have agency, but I want to know. I want to know now why I am here, I'm too impatient to not know!